A Kardashian Moment

I am having a Kardashian Moment, so I am going to share just about my hair today. After being a born-again-blonde for the last 20 years (I really was born with white-blonde hair, I swear!), I lost my hair to my very first chemo in March 2018. I wasn’t singled out; that’s how some chemo works. Now, after letting it grow in, then shaving it because I looked like a porcupine, then letting it grow, I am the proud owner of Mr. Minnillo’s Hair. Mr. Minnillo was an older gentleman with thick, wavy, salt and pepper hair who lived down the street from my family while we were growing up.

This is not what I had in mind when my hair started growing back. That it was gray and dark wasn’t a huge surprise, but the texture! I’ve never seen this hair on my head before and had no idea it was hiding in my head. And I have as many cowlicks as I have hair! When I get my hair trimmed, I come home and cut daily for the next 3 weeks. My hair might or might not be uneven, but it sticks out at will a different place every stinkin’ day. How can I have a bad hair day with one inch of hair? It’s unbelievable to me.

And as time has gone on, what I have learned is that if I let my hair grow beyond Mr. Minnillo, I am Combover Gumby. It starts to swirl on one side, grows to the top, then doubles back with the most interesting curl I’ve ever seen. There’s no cure for that.

But what all of this has made me think about is how total strangers have used my hair to support me. When I was in the middle of an ugly divorce years ago, I had to meet my then-husband at the bank. In the middle of his giving me a hard time, a man in about his thirties walked by me, smiled into my eyes and said loudly, “Great hair!” I felt like he was on my side.

And people walk up to me on a daily basis to tell me how great my hair looks. Yesterday a woman I don’t remember meeting even told me that she saw me when I was bald and loves how it looks now. It just blows me away! The biggest thing I’ve felt since diagnosed with cancer is how kind people are, how willing they are to extend themselves to a total stranger. I guess in some respects, being bald and older (cough, cough) makes me stand out from the crowd, right?

Don’t misunderstand: I wouldn’t have shaved my head for money if I had had a choice. I liked being blonde. But this is my new normal, and I want my life to be happy. I’m trying to cherish these amazing moments that will become nursing home memories. My life’s mission is to make people feel valued and empowered. When people do that for me, I understand why I want to do it. What if we filled the world with only happy people?


Thanks Giving

All I have to do for dinner is prepare asparagus. My friends know me and know my cooking prowess. Rinsing and baking a vegetable is perfect for my skill level. I am grateful further because I can write this article. There is so much more I am grateful for as well: I have good health (yes, even with stage 2 cancer, one can be healthy!), a wonderful home to live that allows me to kayak at will, and most of all, the most amazing friends and family anyone could have! It feels like way more than I deserve.

Today, in addition, I’m thankful for the messages of thanks I’ve received about CBD hemp oil and the positive changes it’s made in so many lives. Anyone who tries it has good results, and they can’t wait to tell their friends. Since many people want to discuss CBD hemp oil before they try it, I’ve been allowed to talk with some wonderful people. Not only do I get to hear their stories, I have something to offer them to make their lives better, help them create lives worth living. From my personal experience, trying to accomplish something when I am in pain – physical and psychological – is an exhausting challenge. That I have something to offer people that is so easy and relatively inexpensive to use to help overcome that is a miracle to me.

Thank you, also, for your faith in me. Many of the people who call me don’t know me, yet they trust me with their stories and their wellbeing. It is a great honor. One woman in particular purchased CBD hemp oil for chronic pain. She wanted to try whole hemp oil but since she did almost no drugs, she was worried about what would happen. I suggested she call me when she was ready to take it. When she did, I walked her through using it. “I am here if you want to discuss how you feel or any weird effects you are having.” She promised to call me if she did. That was in the evening. No call that night. No call the next morning. Finally, I called to make sure she was alive! “Yes,” she said. “I’m just able to do everything I want so I didn’t think about you!” Perfect. That’s the result I want.

Please let me know how I can help you have a better life. Have a wonderful day!


Let’s talk about how much and what CBD hemp oil to use to relieve whatever ails you. I have a wonderful friend who has a bad back. At my suggestion, he tried the Proprietary Gold Hemp Extract 24-27%. When I first started using whole hemp oil for the discomfort and anxiety I experienced with bone marrow cancer, the Gold set me free! I felt that ‘ah’ moment when the pain and oppressed feeling lifted, and I could focus on my life.

My friend, however, even though he felt relief from his bad back, didn’t like the taste. “It tastes like cut grass!” Yes, it does. He loves the gummies but doesn’t get the relief he did with the extract, just a little lift. I told him that using gummies instead of extract was like taking a knife to a gun fight: You’re probably not going to win.

When you have something big going on like a hurt body or an ailing psyche, it takes some milligrams of CBD hemp oil to help alleviate that. The New York Times in their October 28, 2018 issue interviewed (among others) Dr. Esther Blessing. She is an assistant professor at New York University of Medicine. Dr. Blessing is coordinating a study of CBD hemp oil as a treatment for post traumatic stress disorder. According to the good doctor, “In order to treat anxiety, we know you need around 300 milligrams [of CBD hemp oil].”

Hence my suggestion that my dear friend try some serious extract instead of just some gummies or chocolate. Don’t get me wrong: You need a little boost, nothing like a little sugar mixed with come CBD. If you want to do something more serious, it would probably be more beneficial to take something that will allow a higher dosage and availability of CBD hemp oil. A nice extract, some drops, a vape, a suppository will accomplish that.

As always, it’s important to experiment. Everyone’s body chemistry is unique. And even when you go to the doctor, doesn’t s/he say of the prescribed drug, “Let’s try this to see what happens.”

You might not like the taste. I don’t pretend that I do. Right after my CBD hemp oil countdown is over (90 seconds counted sloooowly), I find the taste of hot coffee washes the CBD taste away in one or two swallows. Please also remember that you willingly ate dirt and worms as a kid, and the effect wasn’t nearly as nice.

Your Opinion on holycityoil.com

Finally, I have holycityoil.com up and running. It’s no easy task to get merchant credit card processing for a CBD oil website. Only recently it was legalized in all 50 states by the Senate. I’m still trying to get the Cannabis out of my google description so that I don’t end up on the wrong side of the law, although I must say that at 67 years of age, I never thought I would be so cutting edge!

Please do me a favor: Go check it out and give me your opinion! If you buy something, shoot me a quick email at susan@holycityoil.com, and you will receive a 10% discount as well as free ground shipping.

Thanks, hugs, and love!

Med Fiancee 101

Not being a medical professional (Med Fiancees 101 isn’t a medical degree, especially since I dropped out) but having worked in the medical professional as an administrator makes me look for ‘by the book’ research on CBD hemp oil. I worked at a major medical school and then teaching hospital in Ohio where I was raised. A lot of what I am finding has to do with marijuana research which is part of the hemp family. What I use and sell has less than 0.3% THC, so I don’t get high. Here is a link to an article from the National Institute of Health on the effects of hemp on disease and pain.


Full disclosure, having worked in the medical profession, having been (and still am) a patient, my level of faith in our current medical model has led me to look for alternative methods of healing and staying healthy. For decades I didn’t use an aspirin or any other medication because a lot of it has side effects that seem worse than the disease to me. The quality of my life is more important to me than hanging on forever. I watched both of my parents struggle with long term illnesses. It was brutal!

Chemotherapy went against everything I had been doing to stay healthy for the last 30 or so years. In addition to putting chemicals into my body to kill off everything so that the cancer would be eradicated, I was sent home with lists of other chemicals to use to solve (or mask) the problems the chemo might cause. Every day I woke up to a battle to be true to myself or follow the doctor’s orders. I couldn’t make myself take the secondary chemicals. In order to do that, I had to stop chemo.

Everyone thought I was strong to walk away from chemo. I respectfully disagree. I would have had to battle my values every single day to stay in it, and that wasn’t how I was going to live. The daily battle would have been too great, and the quality of my life would have suffered severely. Besides, I looked terrible: My skin was gray, the light went out of my eyes, I couldn’t work out like I normally do. I am impressed by people who have the fortitude to stick it out.

I experiment with the CBD oil daily. I go without it for a day or two to see if it’s really helping the pain. It does. With CBD hemp oil, I can maintain my daily schedule. Without it, I am relegated to bed to read trashy novels. I won’t know about the effect the CBD has on the cancer until January 2019 when I go for my semi-annual MRI, but I’m not really taking it for that. I’m taking it because I want to have a life worth living. It’s important to me that I am true to my word. If I tell you that it’s working for me, I need to be telling the truth.

So far, so good.

Southern Charm

I was brought up in Cleveland, Ohio by parents whose education stopped at the eighth grade. They were both the oldest of huge families, and when their dads died they had to get full time jobs to help support their siblings. To compensate for that lack of education, they read to us daily and were meticulous about their children’s grammar and diction. The only thing I heard more than ‘stand up straight’ was ‘enunciate clearly!’ That was my first big word: enunciate. After college when I followed my then boyfriend South, my mother almost died. She was worried that the relaxed Southern drawl and grammar would crowd out everything she had worked so hard to instill in me.

It did. I took to the South like the ol’ duck to water. My two most Southern experiences were: 1. Driving across Alabama from Atlanta, Georgia where I lived at the time to Starkville, Mississippi to visit my friends Tracie and Bubba. When I returned, I didn’t own an ending ‘g’. And no more pms for me: I was fixin’ to start. Everyone in Mississippi was so wonderful, why would I not want to sound like them? I didn’t plan it; it just happened. Language is culture, right?

Number two was when I evacuated recently with my best friend and her two year old from Charleston, South Carolina where I live to a small rural community outside of Savannah, Georgia. We were at her brother’s house down a dirt road with its chicken coop. Harris is probably one of the best hosts I’ve ever had the pleasure of visiting. One night at dusk my friend’ two year old was chasing frogs and needed my help. Believe me, never did I imagine myself at the age of 67 getting ready to crawl up under a pickup truck on a farm surrounded by chickens to catch a frog! I’m sure it was a sight to behold. The event ended with the frog urinating down the front of my young friend’s shirt as he held the poor frog too tightly! Ew.

I don’t want that to end. It’s of no importance to me that I have bone marrow cancer. Everyone has something, don’t they? Yes, I fulfill my treatment. I eat well and work out. I take my CBD oil. Without all of that, I’m just a cranky ol’ thing! With or without cancer, I couldn’t ever have imagined myself sliding up under a truck after a frog. The CBD oil helps to make that possible. When you’ve used your body as hard as I have throughout your life, there are bound to be some aches and pains at this point with or without a disease.

Right now at this stage of my cancer treatment, I have to be vigilant. There is pain. I use a CBD patch, extract, moisturizer, and salve. Okay, full disclosure: the last two are for pretty skin, too.  We do what we have to do to make our lives worth living. I hope your days are as exciting as mine!

United Front

As the healing of my bone marrow cancer has progressed, I’ve hit a few rought patches like the one I’m in now. Pain makes me really cranky, and I’m not a grin and bear it person. Bone pain nags, doesn’t it? To manage this difficult phase, I’m using a 40 mg patch of CBD oil by Proprietary as well as Proprietary Gold Extract. (I’m still working my way through every form of CBD but pet care!). It took a few days, so I took aspirin, something I try to avoid because aspirin gives me a stomach ache.

Then suddenly, the ‘ahhh’ hit, and I no longer need the aspirin. I only need the extract intermittently. The patch is good for 96 hours, stays on through the shower, kayaking, clothing, and general life. I use the extract after I do something more rigorous or if I feel that blah feeling. The extract really helps me with focus and energy.

At last MRI 3 months ago, I still had stage 2 bone marrow cancer. The alternative treatment I was undergoing had prevented it from spreading, but it didn’t knock it back as I had hoped. Now I’m undergoing something else for 6 months. I don’t mind the effort: today I read that some of the chemicals in chemotherapy can cause a secondary cancer that can’t be treated. At least I don’t have to worry about that anymore.

Several great things have come from having cancer, one of which is that I trust myself so much more! Now I am able to seek out new kinds of treatment that put me in more control of my health. Sitting there letting someone drip chemicals into my body just isn’t for me. So, I guess, Control Freaks Unite! There are better days on the horizon as we make CBD oil more available to everyone!